Lost.

I feel lost without you. I guess I deserve such suffering in a way; it's the result for my actions. I just wish we could talk, to sort things out. There's nothing more I can do but to accept your choices as well as to understand them. I mean, after all, it was me who lead you to such thinking.

Still, it frightens me. I don't know if this void, not knowing, will end soon or if it's outcome will be something I can handle. I can't do anything else, in fear of screwing it up again, as usual. I think, what saddens me the most is knowing I hurt you to such a degree that I made you act this way.

I just hope, that no matter what happens,you find peace and happiness once again. Because, as I've always said, you are my one true love and your happiness is mine as well. You are the one I'll never forget, I can guarantee that.

And, that if you ever need, I'll always be here, waiting with open arms, just as I promised I'd be.