Fechas.

Yo también quisiera pasar junto a ti las fechas importantes, como veo a todos los demás hacerlo. Quiero lo que ellos tienen.

Un día.

De repente un día despiertas y te das cuenta de todo el tiempo que le dedicaste a sólo una cosa creyendo que era lo único y más importante,  y todo el tiempo que no le dedicaste a todo lo demás.

Contigo.

Quiero pasar todos los días de mi vida a tu lado. Nada, absolutamente nada, vale más la pena que tú. Te amo, no quiero estar ni un segundo sin ti. Quiero estar siempre contigo.

Pefume.

Mi almohada huele a perfume, pero no el tuyo. A decir verdad ... creo que no recuerdo como es el tuyo.

Vacations.

I miss you. It does cheer me up a little bit that you're coming soon, but you'll be leaving again before I even have the chance to make up for the time away. I hate being like this. I wish we could be together more often. It saddens me that when we're supposed to have more time for each other, we hardly spend it together. And it's not like I don't want to go, there no way I'd say that because I know you really enjoy it, but ... I'm left alone. I don't know if you feel the way I do, I don't think so. I don't know if you miss me like I do, unbearably sometimes. I wish you said so, I wish you missed me.

Pesadilla

Esta noche tuve una pesadilla. Fue uno de los peores sueños de mi vida. Desperté sintiéndome impotente y hasta sintiéndome mal físicamente. Fue horrible.

Ganas.

Tengo tantas cosas que quiero decirte. Tantos abrazos, besos y cariño que quiero darte. Y así mismo, tanto miedo de hacerlo, de incomodarte más y de molestarte.

Lugar.

Lo que me preocupa es que en la situación en que estás alguien mas llegué a tu vida y ocupe mi lugar sin que me de cuenta.

3 o'clock.

It's 3 o'clock in the morning and I'm lying in bed, thinking about how my actions could have ruined the best thing in my life. Thinking about how I say I love you and you won't answer back. Thinking about how I hurt you, how I disappointed you, how you can't look me in the eye. Thinking about how to let go, if I should do so. Thinking about not giving up, about winning you back. Thinking about how I want you to be happy, even though that may mean trading my happiness for yours.

Home.

I wanna go home, please.

Solo tu.

Puedo hablar con muchas personas, sin estar realmente sola. Pero me siento perdida sin ti, nadie puede hacerme sentir como tu - nunca tan calmada, tan contenta.

Sin ti.

Siento que contigo era mejor persona. Sin ti, soy impaciente y grosera, demandante y egoísta.

Dream.

I dreamt about you. We were us and we were happy.

Sleep.

I woke up missing you dearly. I hope you're enjoying yourself and have a safe trip.

Sometimes.

Sometimes, I miss you. Like, really really miss you. I wonder if we'll be okay soon.

El amor.

El amor es paciente, es bondadoso. El amor no es envidioso ni jactancioso ni orgulloso. No se comporta con rudeza, no es egoísta, no se enoja fácilmente, no guarda rencor. El amor no se deleita en la maldad sino que se regocija con la verdad. Todo lo disculpa, todo lo cree, todo lo espera, todo lo soporta.

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Unforgettable love.

The thing is you're unforgettable, at least to me. There's no way I'll ever forget those dazzling eyes or that broad smile, your big arms which could so safely embrace me or your wild hair, which rebelled more and more as it grew longer, your sweet, sweet smell which filled me up and drunked me as a fine liquor, your silly jokes on almost evey topic, your sense of duty and responsability, your manliness which to me was the pure definition of it, your touch, as soft as a feather floating in the breeze, and your voice, a tender melody to my ears. Because of this and an innumerable amount of other reasons is why you are unforgettable to me. Knowing you has been one of my life's greatest blessings. I am so inmensely glad that I got to love you; that was one of the wonderful times of my life.

You are and will always be the love of my life. And that simple fact never fails to cheer me up.

Lost.

I feel lost without you. I guess I deserve such suffering in a way; it's the result for my actions. I just wish we could talk, to sort things out. There's nothing more I can do but to accept your choices as well as to understand them. I mean, after all, it was me who lead you to such thinking.

Still, it frightens me. I don't know if this void, not knowing, will end soon or if it's outcome will be something I can handle. I can't do anything else, in fear of screwing it up again, as usual. I think, what saddens me the most is knowing I hurt you to such a degree that I made you act this way.

I just hope, that no matter what happens,you find peace and happiness once again. Because, as I've always said, you are my one true love and your happiness is mine as well. You are the one I'll never forget, I can guarantee that.

And, that if you ever need, I'll always be here, waiting with open arms, just as I promised I'd be.

Amar.

Tu sabes que te apoyo.
No va a gustarte lo que tengo que decir, pero aun así debo hacértelo saber.

Pienso que te equivocas. Y para mi es triste que pienses así.

Al escucharte, me doy cuenta del por qué y entiendo tu frustración y tu enojo, que quizás estés harto y quieras que las cosas cambien. Tienes que comprender que no es así de fácil, simplemente alejarse. No funciona así. No se puede afrontar así. Y la situación no es excusa para actuar mal. No es excusa para abandonar ni mucho menos lo es para odiar.

El amar, a pesar de, es una virtud que se cultiva en familia. Tiene una iniciativa propia y crece con la ayuda de los demás. Se que es mas fácil culpar a los demás por los errores que cometen, pero tomar el camino del perdón y luchar contra uno mismo para querer amar y querer perdonar, tiene mucho más valor.

Yo te apoyo, siempre. Sin importar qué y por que te amo, pero no puedo cruzarme de brazos a presenciar tal situación o voltear mi mirada y pretender que nada pasa. Quiero entender la otra versión de la historia y me gusta pensar que es mucho mas de lo que aparenta; tratar de encontrar la razón para ayudar opuesto a la razón para renunciar.

Y me duele. No es mi situación y la relación que tengo es poca como para intuir en su desarrollo. Pero si puedo, si me permites y si quieres, me gustaría ayudarte a entender el por qué del amor y el perdón.

Todos merecen amor y nada mas importa para ser merecedores de ese amor. Solo falta querer recibirlo y a su vez, darlo.

Paz.

Es curioso, como eres tú el que más roba mis sueños y pensamientos, inquietando mis sentimientos y cómo tú eres el que los calma de nuevo, apaciguando una tormenta de confusión con unas simples palabras.

Shine.

There are two ways to spreading the light: to be the candle or the mirror reflecting it.

Out.

It's not as if I didn't know who you are, what you feel and what you dislike.

Lonely.

I feel a tad lonely. I've been missing you. Have you felt that way? Sadly, I feel as if I should not. I don't know how to behave around you. It's as if you'd changed into a different person, someone I'm not comfortable around anymore. I fear speaking my mind to you.

Still, I feel lonely. You know I'll always be here for you, right? So, why don't I feel the same you about you?

Trust.

I'm scared. I know I should trust you, but with how you've been lately, I don't know what to think. I'm scared you'll hurt me, even if you don't mean it. Can I trust you?

I'm worried.

I may not know much, but from what you told me, things aren't going well.

It's terrifying to a point, because there are so many things that could go wrong; so many mistakes that could be made and that would ruin everything.

And I know it scares you. I can see it in your eyes and hear it in your voice.

I'm sorry I cannot do much. There's just a handful of things I can do, but there's no guarantee it'll make things better.

I'm here for you. I'll help as you need me to. I love you. It'll be okay, I promise you.

Because we are not alone. Have faith; I'll pray for you.

Una sopresa agradable.

Jamas crei que dirias eso.

Esperaba cualquier cosa, menos eso.

Estoy sorpendida, impactada,sin palabras.

Pero, al final de cuentas, fue una sorpresa realmente agradable.